Words of Life

2005-11-10T18:35:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!! How long has it been since i have written anything here, so this shall be my first post in like 3 mths.

Well where to start ...... I knw hw about starting wif how shitty this sems been, slowly bit by bit i am losing intrest in my course, maybe its because i have no idea wat i am doing but thats a minor detail ;p. But then again i have taken a shine to my Jap class and now i am thinking of changing my Comp course to an Arts course dealing wif languages, well currently i can speak 3 languages English, Chinese and Japanese (I said speak i didnt say i was good at it LOL) and if i do take the Arts course i will be doing French and German in addition to my Jap course next year, now this is the problem learning 3 languages at the same time i dun think its a very sane idea lol, its hard enough learning one language let alone 3 at the same time. But if i dun do them i wont have anything else i really wan to do, sigh...... i'm currently going through life without a goal juz going along wif wat ppl tell mi, maybe i'm still not ready for this. But if i'm not ready now when will i be ???? Next yr 10 yrs later, i really hope things work out fine my futures at stake sigh........ well i guess theres notting i can do about it rite not i'll juz have to ride out the storm and hope the skies clear soon, so i've decided to stop worrying abt it for now.

Well currently i'm waiting to go home the count down has started and its currently at 3days till my flight home, can't wait to go home being able to see all my friends and family will probably be good for me right now, and the food oh the food especially home cooked food theres a special something inside home cooked food, it may not be a five star meal but it's always simple and nice many ppl might not notice it but spending 9 months away from home will open yur eyes to alot of things u would normally take for granted. The only thing that i am not looking forward to is the weather back home, gees its already hot here and the temp here is like 20 -25 degrees it will take some getting use too once i get back home that and lots of showers LOL.

Well i got some stuff that needs to be done so i guess i'll end this post here, will be blogging alot more often now or at least i hope so lol. So till my next post gdnite.......

Sushi Buffet pic 1.

Sushi Buffet pic 2.

2005-08-11T17:26:00.000+08:00

Snow Snow Snow lalalalala. It snow today once in the morning at 6am (which my hoes mates didn't think twice to get me out of bed to go take alook at the snow *YAWN*) till about 10am and then again at 1pm till about 2pm. I kinda saw snow last year but it was just small ice-kachang shavings compared to todays weather, oh well good good that means that i have 1 less thing to do or see in my life's check list check.
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Front of Christ College.

Outside my window.

College road.

College road 2.

David before he pegged mi with his snow ball.

2005-08-06T10:48:00.000+08:00

Woooohoooo finally got my learner's license, took mi 3 tries but to be fair to mi i didn't even study the handbook for the first 2 tries and still almost pass. Oh well 3rd times a charm and of course wif abt 2 solid hrs of staring at the handbook i pass wif a full score i think LOL, oh well a pass is a pass no grades here. The only complaint i have is wif the pic on my license, the woman taking it was completly being anal abt it, sigh "I'll count to 3" she said and the wif a "1,2,3" it was all over OMGWTF !!!!! i didnt even hear her count dammit, sigh well at least i have my license now so watch out cute furry roadside animals cuz the body counts are going to pile up LOL.

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Angel's Tears

Faith, hope, laughter and joy.
Shattered and bashed,
Like many a forgotten toy.
Gone are courage and love of the heart.
Dreams of happiness disappear,
Like the awakening from so many dreams.
Entered bitterness, doubt and fear,
Like cold winters ice.
Long are the nights,
Haunted by shadows of sins.

Angelic wings tattered and torn,
Break away while tears of sorrows are shed.
Halo once golden and bright, now dull and grey.
Because the angel, wouldn't put past memories down to lay.
A prisoner locked in by her own key.
Rest and contentment from her flee.
Only self forgiveness will set her free.
Like the sun rising at down, she will be reborn.
But until that moment all hope is gone.

Well the a new poem for a new post choosen by Jas so here it is. Hmm..... are sad poems really better then happy uplifting ones ?????

2005-07-29T10:15:00.000+08:00

Well its that time again where i try and update my blog again, unfortunately my life is currently in a stalemate so i'll fill this update with useless info that u probably dun knw abt lol. Well here it goes.

1) The world's longest name is: Adolph Blaine Charles David Earl Frederick Gerald Hubert Irvin
John Kenneth Lloyd Martin Nero Oliver Paul Quincy Randolph Shermasn Thomas Uncas
Victor William Xerxes Yancy Zeus Wolfeschlegelsteinhausenbergerdorft Sr. And yes tat is an
actual name, no foolies.

2) Mickey Mouse is known as "Topolino" in Italy.

3) Hitler and Napoleon both had only one testicle. LOL imagin that.

4) About 10,000,000 people have the same birthday as you. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL!!!!!!

5) Leonardo Da Vinci invented scissors.

6) Mel Blanc (the voice of Bugs Bunny) was allergic to carrots.

7) The average person falls asleep in seven minutes.

8) The original story from Tales of 1001 Arabian Nights begins, "Aladdin was a little Chinese
boy."

9) The Oscar award got its name from an actress who mentioned it looks like her uncle Oscar.

10) Paper was invented early in the second century by Chinese eunuch.

11) When the moon is directly over your head, you weigh slightly less.

12) The coldest outdoor temperature ever recorded on earth was 127 below zero in Antarcticaon August 24, 1960.

13) Non-dairy creamer is flammable. Try it out.

14) Every time you lick a stamp, you're consuming 1/10 of a calorie.

15) Of the 206 bones in the human body, 52 are in the feet.

16) Every ten minutes, another plant or animal life form becomes extinct.

17) Wet sand weighs less than dry sand.

18) Men can read smaller print than women.

19) 111, 111, 111 X 111, 111, 111 = 12, 345, 678, 987, 654, 321

20) If you take any number, double it, add 10, divide by 2, and subtract your original number,the answer will always be 5

Well there u have it 20 useless info that u shouldn't know abt, so wat are u waiting for go wow everyone wif yur knowledge of very useless info LOL.

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Nobody knows........

Nobody knows how I feel about you.

Nobody knows of the sacrifices i made.

Nobody knows how much I long to be with you.

Nobody knows cause these deeds will never be said.

Nobody knows how much one hug from you means to me.

Nobody knows how much one word can make my heart sway.

Nobody knows how one look from you can take my heart out to sea.

Nobody knows how much one smile from you can make my day.

Nobody knows how much i think of you each day.

Nobody knows how much i dream of you each night.

Nobody knows,

Nobody knows..... but me.

2005-07-08T15:07:00.000+08:00

Well here i am again updating mi blog as surprising as it may seem i am doing it. Its amazing how fast time passes by without you noticing in a blink of an eye its already the end of the first sem, exams are over and in a couple of days the holidays will also be over. while it wsa a heap of fun wif Jas and Daphne coming down to visit Tas, it was still too short but it was a good one week when they were here, not to mention lots of money spent lol really need to save during the coming sem if i want to have enough money to survive on without asking for more (which i really don't). The remaining week was spent on the com playing none stop, and here i am on the last friday of the holidays.

On a good note Vivien is back home already but i haven't really toked to her yet. we did chat on msn on tuesday but that conversation was not something to write about. I wonder if we're slowly drifting apart because of the distance and all, i really hope that doesnt ever happen, i really treasure it and hope it will pick up soon. I really hope she comes online soon so we can have a long chat. I think she might be out visiting her grandmother, if so i hope she comes back soon.

My Broken Wings

I know this will not remain forever

However it's beautifulYour eyes, hands and your warm smile

They'er my treasure

It's hard to forget

I wish there was a solution

Don't spend your time in confusion

I'll trun back now and spread

My broken wings

Still strong enough to cross the ocean with

My broken wings

How far should i go drifting in the wind?

Higher and higher in the light

My broken wings

Still strong enough to cross the ocean with

My broken wings

How far should i go drifting in the wind?

Across the sky just keep on flying

Did i ever chain you down to my heart?

Cause i was afraid of you

Now i can't hold on any longer

Love is not a toy

Let go of me now

The time we spend is perpetual

Our future is not real

So i'll leap into the air

My broken wings

Still strong enough to cross the ocean with

My broken wings

How far should i go drifting in the wind?

Higher and higher in the light

My broken wings

Still strong enough to cross the ocean with

My broken wings

How far should i go drifting in the wind?

Across the sky just keep on flying

This is my current favourite song just thought i share it wif who ever is reading this.

And Now For Pictures:

2005-04-23T13:30:00.000+08:00

It suprising that i am updating my blog so regularly but due to popular demand i'll be updating it (LOL so BHB). Anyways notting much has happen during the past week, except that i now have 2 brusied toes from our little hiking expedition, they dun hurt particularly but it juz something abt having purple toes that gross mi out LOL, but i guess they'll heal soon enough. Well good things have happen this week and bad things too.

Firstly the bad things:

1) 3 more Jap test next week OMG this is so shitty hw am i going to cope wif 3 freaking test and the test date are not spaced apart either 1 on tues and 2 on weds ahhhhhh HELP!!!!!!.

2) An assigment due on the following thurs that i have no idea to do OMG this is not good at all, praying for god to send mi a mirical soon if not it won't be a happy week here in Tas.

Now for the good things:

1) Aced a Jap test this week or at least i think i did haven't gotten the results back but i am pretty confident abt it.

2) Aced an AI assigment and i knw i aced this one cause i have the mark in black and boy was i happy, but i dun think i was the only one so its notting to great to shout abt but all the same its AWSOME.

3) MONDAY IS A HOLIDAY WOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!

4) I finally got a reply mail form Vivien oh hw i missed her mails, but it can't be helped she is a medical student after all and there is a ton of work for her to do. Anyways i am glad that she sent mi a mail.
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Friends

Sent to a place so far away,

We learned to live again day by day,

A little homesick we may be,

But I'm thankful your here with me.

Together we shall stand tall,

Always ready to catch each other before we fall,

With you as my friend i am truly blessed,

As you seem to always bring out my very best.

We hugged and cried,

When we got well enough to say goodbye,

But now i know,

Whenever i feel like I'm about to fall,

All i have to do is make a call.

This short poem is dedicated to a very special new friend Princess Priya Chelsea Darshini Namasivayam LOL hope our friendship will last a life time.

2005-04-17T10:43:00.000+08:00

My My My it's been a long time since i updated this thing, and my excuse is that uni has been tieing mi down....... honest, well maybe not i've juz been too lazy to go update it hehehe. Well since the last update many things have happen in this insignificant life, the first thing was April's fool day and boy was it a fool's day the pics at the bottm will tell the story. Basically it was one hell of a day bet u've never seen such jokes but too bad everybody was well prepared and the tricks all didn't work either that or we were all too noisy when fixing up our little traps of DOOM!!!! Well except for Aurther who kept falling for the toothpaste on the door handle trick hmmm.... and not juz one but a couple of time it was juz wrong LOL, all in all it was one chaotic day in the apartment.
The next was the Rogaining event that we took part in. Firstly Rogaining is an event where checkpoints are placed through out a vast land mass and participants are suppose to plot their route to find the shortest route with the most points, then it is up to the participants to trek, bush-bash their way through bushes and stuff to get to this points. There is a set time limit and points are deducted for reaching the finishing line late. There were 2 events on the day the 6 hr long one and the 12 hr long event. We were participating in the 6hr long event, the race started at abt 12noon and we were all fired up and ready to go, the race got off to a good start and the weather was good all the way through out the event, since the location of the race was held in a sheep farm there were many fences around the area that we had to climb over or crawl through (Oh god hw i hate barb-wire fences now) thats not all the flora in the area were mostly hard and spiky and boy do they hurt when they prick u, the terrain was also very rocky and that didn't do much to help our journey. By the end of the race we had treked through a route of more then 24km in six hours and to tell the turth i was in no shape to take on such a task. Well i guess thats more then enough excercise for a month for mi hehe.
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Never give up

No matter whats happening I'll keep on going,

I'll fight to live even if I'm bleeding and choking,

Keeping this happy face on the most depressing day,

Keep on going ignoring what people say.

Keep on trucking even if I'm riding on the rims,

Keep on begging for god to forgive my sins,

Even if I'm lost in the sands,

I'll keep on travelling through this vast great land.

I'll keep going I will not die,

Even if I was left high and dry,

Not even when I'm drowning in a sea of sorrow,

I'll swim with all my might like there’s no tomorrow.

Even if i was dealt a bad hand,

I will not live as a sad man,
I'll cast away my fears and live on strong,
Living every day as if I can do no wrong.

I'll make the best of things,

Even if day by day there’s less food to bring,

I'll show the world and then everyone will see,

I'll make this life the best for me.

Keep on going even if my hearts shattered,

I'll find every single piece no matter how far they'er scattered,

Even if I keep having bad relationships,

I'll keep on looking no matter how many trips.

Even if my perfect girl isn't in sight,

I'll keep searching so that I can hold her tight,

Even if this pen runs out of ink,

I'll will still get you to know how I feel and think.

My door on April's fool day

Felix's door on Apri's fool day

David's door on April's fool day

The Tv remote on April's fool day

A MSG to David

The berry farm on the way to Rogaining

The farm

The starting point

Before the race

Fence climbing 101

Journey to the west

More fence climbing

Oh God my legs are going to fall off

Planing our next route

Even more fence climbing

2005-02-21T20:31:00.000+08:00

Today the first day of a brand new school term so far sooo good, the time table for my classes have been really kind to mi i got thursadys OFF!!!!! hahahaha hw lucky is that but i guess because of that Mondays are a real killer but i dun might, work first play later i guess, going to start anew no more slacking off classes going to work hard going to do good this year (hope i'll be able to stick to that though hehehe). So far sooooo good for the weather its not too cold and not too hot hmmm actually i might already be used to the weather, well anyways its all good, i'm not complaining, got a sweet new apartment to live in wif sooooo much more space and at a cheaper rent too hahahaha the down side home cooked meals courtasy of yurs truly lol. Well i guess its a good time to improve my cooking well at least i hope so hehehe. Well on the other hand not everything is going so great wif a friend of mine she's pretty home sick and i dun think she is really having a ball over in melbourn so she says, but i am hoping things will work out for her once sch start over there which is on the 28th of Feb next week, but till then all i can do is tok to her, i seriously hope that toking to her over the phone is helping if not theres really notting i can do sigh...... "Y are we always so powerless when it is really needed ????" Well all we can do is try. And so ends the first day of a new year in Uni life.
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By: Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

We must not hope to be mowers,

And to gather the ripe gold ears,

Unless we have first been sowers

And watered the furrows with tears.

It is not just as we take it,

This mystical world of ours,

Life's field will yield as we make it

A harvest of thorns or of flowers.

2005-02-15T01:00:00.000+08:00

Well Well Well its been about 2mths since the last entry for mi i can even see the cobbwebs growing hehehe. Well i guess its a good time to blog feeling emotionaly unstable at the moment, juz told my ex gf that i still loved her hehehe. Well it didnt ended hw i hoped it would, but i guess my heart is satisfied. Looks like fairy tales are juz tat fairy tales, in real life the prince doesnt always get the princess and happly ever afters are rarer then diamonds, i guess its all my fault, "A coward's love knows only regret." today i learn hw true that is. I loved her since i was 14 i didnt tell her she was my one and only till 4 years later, my heart weeps when i think abt it, things would have been different i'm certain of this now since she told mi she liked mi since then too, finally got the courafe to ask her out when i was 19 dun knw hw it happened it juz did everything went well, and we were an item on new years day, that was the happiest moment of my life period. Things didnt have a happy ending there, faced lots of problems, parents, school etc. but i truly treasured ever moment of it finally the inevitable happened she wanted to break up as we did spend much time together wat wif mi in camp and she wif sch and parent's objection to her having a bf, the sad part is tat i let her go wif out a fight thought it was for the best that if she could be happy notting really mattered (IDIOT!!!!!!!!), was apart for abt a year then came a wonderful day we patched up and were together again, but my joy was short lived barely passed 3 days we were apart again and it happened on April Fools day the irony (She really has a wicked sense of humor) , and i guess thats tat went to Aus and kind of never saw her again, still kept in touch wif her ever now and again on MsN, but i have alwasy loved her and i guess a part of mi always will. Heres to her and her new life may lady luck always be by her side.
And so ends another chapter in my life..........
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Mi and mi cousins

Mi and Huilee

Where did you go... I will never know

Where did you go... I will never know,

Now that I think... I think of you!

The way you looked and the way I held you,

Where did you go... I will never know.

So many come and so many go,

But, you will always be in my soul.

Yes, where did you go... I will never know.

I wish I could hold you and kiss you and never let you go

I called and called but you never came...

Where did you go... I will never know.

You said, you loved me but, that can't be true'

Cause, now you're with him and I'm not with you.

Yes, Where did you go... I will never know.

2004-12-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

WoW it really has been awhile since i've been here, well i have been rather busy (or rather lazy but i prefer busy hehe), the holidays have been going great so far an in a blink of an eye more then a month has passed by and i'm half way through my holidays already *GASP* OMG. Well lots of things have happen since i last wrote in here well actually more bad news then good, well most of the ppl i knw have brojken up wif their significant other i mean it not yur average fling type of relationships its more like 6 yrs worth type of relationship. I mean come on if u have been putting up wif each other u would figure that i was meant to be but i guess god really has a sense of humor. I mean are we guys really that bad, the ppl i knw who have broken up (the recent ones) range from the clueless ???, the unlucky too the biggist BAST*&^S u will meet, u knw the its not u its me oh i am not worthy of u type *points* *points* ahem ahem.
Well at least i have a job to keep my mind off things, i never knew that having a job would be such a blessing i mean sure it's boring and u always can't wait to go home lol but still i keeps my mind focus and doesn't let my mind wonder about thinking up stupid stuff. Ppl at work are nice too or well at least most of them, my supervisor is a real riot always toking nonsense (not that i mind lol) and his part is another one but in a much more suttle way, today we were toking abt gigolos lol and hw his friend was one, well it all started when James the more rowdy one tok abt the increase in electric bills and stuff and how he will need a second job to support his family then hoi the more suttle one joined in by asking him to be a gigolo lol then it sort of when from there lol the funniest thing is that they agreed that i would make a good gigolo lol dun knw if i should take it as a compliment or wat lol i really dun knw. Anyways i guess i've talked for long enough going out wif Adele tml hope it turns out well its our first meeting after all hehehe anyways i'll end it riteeeeeee here.

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A gathering of friends

Christmas Eve BBQ

Most awsome costume !!!!!!!!

2004-11-28T18:11:00.000+08:00

Well its end of the week and results are out and lets say that they were far below expectations, well i can't say that i didn't see this one coming but ihad hope that a mirical would happen. Well i guess you can't live on luck alone i guess, well i got no one to blame but myself, but next year will be different i'm sure of it. Well on the lighter side of life i got into the Uni Appartments and will be living with my buddies next year yeah "Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu!!!!!" (which just means pplease take care of me...... probably hahahaha), oh and i finally got a proper job starting the 1st of Dec will tell more after the first day of work, so lets hope that the people there will be nice to me(hmmm i wonder if this is the reason that my luck maxed out ????). Well this week has been ok except that sheryl was amitted into hospital for infection around the intestine area if i remembered correctly, but not to worry she's back home now resting and i hope she gets well really really soon sigh..... poorthing from what i have gathered her life is not going really well what with the classic neglecting bf and all and now this infection thing, i don't really know much as she dosen't confide in me anymore hahaha guess this counseler just got the sack hehe, but i guess she'll be all right she has tons of friends she can turn to for comfort and stuff so heres wishing her a speedy recovery and hope that she gets her life sorted out.

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Not There...

I stare at you across the room,
And I see your warm smiling face,
I try to see the inside you hide,
Your feelings I try to embrace.

I realize as I look at you,
As I just sit and stare,
I can see you perfectly clear,
But for some reason you're not really there.

As I look at you silent and bare,
At the mystery that is you,
The true you I will never see,
No matter how good the view.

I realize how much that you have changed,
How you don't seem to care,
I stare at you across the room,
But yet you are not there.

2004-11-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey Hey its been a really long time since i wrote anything in here hahaha (lazy lazy lazy). Well i'm back home now well i've been back for about two weeks already and i've been enjoying myself hehehe no more freezing weather, no more crappy college food (home cooked is always the best) and no more shops that close at 5pm - 6pm everyday hahaha, well being back home also means no more cheap pizzas (and i mean cheap $10 for a large!!!!!), no more lan parties with friends i really miss the times, and no more anime watching sessions wif my fellow OTAKUS (Anime = LIFE!!!!) but i guess everything is only for a short period of time got to be heading back there on Feb. Result date is almost here its on the 26th of nov and i can't wait to see hw i crash and burn, i swear to go down in a majestic ball of fire hehe (kidding kidding). But i hope i dun really crash and burn that will juz be bad well all i have to do now is wait now juz 3 more days till judgement is passed.

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Alone.....

Gone are the days of laughter and fun,
Only saddness remains are the all thats said and done,
Forever together is what I said,
And look where that path has led.

The time we spent meant the world to me,
And now they are just memories i keep under my pillow,
Memories I take a peek at from time to time to see,
And everytime my heart weeps like the willow.

Sitting here all alone wondering what went wrong,
Thinking of where I would belong,
My heart was once whole,
But now all thats left is just a big empty hole.

2004-11-08T17:00:00.000+08:00

Yeah the exams are finally OVER!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO party time hehehehe, and i'll be going home soon too tml to be excet so double woooopiee. Well i guess this will be the last blog post from Tasmania then (well at least for awhile that is). Jeremy and Noriko dropped by today to pass mi my chocolate (now i have to think of another plane to pack it though), but it was nice to see them again as this is probably the last time i will see Noriko again as she won't be coming back here to study anymore so i guess i'll have to go to Japan if i wan to ever see her again or vice verse she coming over to Singapore but either way the chances are low oh well all good things come to an end i guess and as for Jeremy he's going over there to get work and if he can't find work he will be back here next year for more studying, and if u haven't guessed yet they are a couple hehehe (always wanted a Jap gurl friend but i guess thats just a fantasy), well so far the day has been uneventful except for the vist so i guess this is the end of the line for this post.......

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"Jeremy and Noriko"

"Jeremy, Noriko and Mi"

"choong and Mi"

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Can u blame mi for not using my brain anymore like said got tired didnt want to write a poem so got pictures to fill the space proud to be lazy

2004-10-30T10:18:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!!!! 3 exam papers down one more to go which is Japanese and i got another week to study for it so no worries on this end phew :p. Well todays saturday and i have notting to do i could study but hey everybody needs a break and i decieded not to study for at least another 3 days so woopie dooda dae, been out shopping for a good part of Saturday morning wif Felix and got a ton of honey to bring back home to the family (well not a ton 2.5kg to be exect but hey....) anyways am planning to give most of it away to my uncles and aunts but we'll se when i get back to Singapore and now the problem is how to carry it all back to Singapore without them spilling all over my luggage i only hope the people loading my bags are not too rough wif them but hehehe big fat hope in that one so i guess i'll have to turn good old scotch tape to do the job or at least hope it does the job.

Got a lan gaming session going in the late afternoon till about 3pm it was a blast like all our lan gaming sessions and its now more of a routine thay we play lan games every Saturday, but we'll be on a 3 month break for the summer holidays till the reopening of school again probably will have a last gamming session this Saturday but then again it will be my Jap exam on the following monday so hmmm well have to see.

And as for Sunday it was a dud yur boring everyday life did notting constructive on Sunday maybe i should have done alittle studying but couldn't be bothered hehehe. And now its already Monday time sure flies and soon i'll be writing my blog forom my home hehehe wonder hws everything back home anyways enjoy the pictures i'll post below this post.

PS: Contrary to the date shown this was posted on Monday the 1st of Nov coz i was
lazy and put off posting the blog on Saturday.

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"My Mates in Christ College"

"The Baka 3 wif Ben"

"Christ College Mates again"

"Jap Class!!!"

"Liam And Me"

"My pals in Singapore wif the best teacher in the world"

2004-10-19T16:17:00.000+08:00

Weeee Viven is back and I juz had a little chat with her on Sunday nite she's doing well over there and the reason why she never mailed me was that she hasn't been to the CC (Cyber Cafe) in along time, hmm...... Guess she was juz being lazy hahahaha but alls well now that I know she's ok guess I was worrying for notting. Well as for me exams are even nearer now juz 5 more days till D-day and that's not 5 working days mine u hehehe, and preparations are going slow at best I need to buck up soon but its juz sooooo hard sigh..... well I guess I got no one to blame so I'll juz blame it on my bed (damn u for making mi sleep in and missing classes!!!!). Hmm..... that felt better hehe, well I guess tats it for this post got to get back to the books if I have the will power to do it.

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**A Stranger**

A stranger appeared before my eyes,

I was drawn to him before I could realize,

Some people you meet are a god sent gift,

They come into your life, just as swift.

We were drawn together like a moth to a flame,

Seemed hard to believe I didn't even know his real name,

Our jobs alone brought us together,

We connected and our lives changed forever.

We had so much in common, So much to say,

Both of us wanted everyone else to go away,

We talked about ourselves and soon could see,

This chanced meeting was meant to be.

Its hard to understand, its not a joke,

We connected even before we spoke,

The room was crowded but it was plain to see,

There was no one around that could be as perfect as he,

We would be together forever,

Always here forever together,

A couple for the world to see,

So perfect that even you'll have to agree.

Some people you meet are a god sent gift,

They come into your life, and make your world shift,

And if you were to ever come our way,

You would see two happy mannequins on display.

2004-10-15T13:14:00.000+08:00

The week juz keeps getting better and better, juz last nite I had a little chat wif mi couz Janying a sweet and nice gurl, even though most of our little chat session consist mostly of "I miss u" and "hw r u doing?", I was happy once again and yes it is the little things that really make mi happy for example a simple hello from an important person will really make my day. We were never really close in the past probably because I was still young and was still not interested in any other people but myself (a selfish brat *shrugs* maybe I can't really say) but nw I guess we are trying to close the gap between us rite nw. And like I said notting much was said but hey the world wasn't built in a day rite so I guess time is all we need. An intellectual, in my point of view and she writes poems too hahaha, she also plays the guitar to songs which she writes herself wootz!!!! She did promise to teach mi the guitar I wonder wat ever happen to that promise, but I guess that request has to be put on hold for now as she is going to have her "O' level exams soon, here's wishing her all the best in her exams may lady luck be by her side in all that she does.
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**Lady Luck**

Lady luck bring her light.

So that she may write.

Lady luck bring her peace,

So that she will feel at ease.

Lady luck sing her your song,

So that she may do no wrong.
Lady Luck lend her your sight,

So that she may climb the greater heights.

Lady luck please guide her hand,
So that everything goes as planned.
Lady luck give her your kiss,

So that she will never miss.

Lady luck show me a sign,
A sign so that I'll know she'll be just fine.
Please lend her your assistance,

So that she may go the distance.

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This poem is dedicated to Janying wishing her good luck in her exams and all that she may do.

(Loving u and missing u lots.)

2004-10-13T08:02:00.000+08:00

Well it's been a tedious week so far but i am happy to say that the worst is over and done with in other words assigments are all done and FINISHED YEAH!!!!!!! Now all thats left is the exams, but lets not let that spoil my mode or at least for another day or two or three hehehe, thnx to all the people who helped me out with the assigment meaning Choong and Scott (keep on rocking !!!!!). The week so far has been great besides finishing the assigments, i probably aced the Japanese written test, and got a really pretty jap gurl as my tutor for a conversation excercise WHOOOO !!!!!! To bad she is like 2 years older then me, probably has a bf and doesn't study at the uni, she is in TAFF studying tourism, but still i am pretty happy, i also made up with a friend...... maybe and things are back to normal...... propably (This was all on Monday) and at night was finishing my assigment and i won't go to bed till its done day, i slpet at 4am and got up at 8 the next day. Tuesday was finish the other assigment and wait for 2 f&*%king hrs for the lecturer to tell me i made a silly mistake thats why my program won't work day, and from my lack of slp u can understand i didn't enjoy waiting very much. Wednesday well went pretty smoothly accept the only bad part of the day was that i couldn't wake up in time for classes...... sigh, maybe i shouldn't have read till like 2am in the morning, oh well i shouldn't dwell on things that can't be fixed. Well time is racing on and there is 1 more week till the exams , and about 4 more weeks till i go HOME WEEEEE!!!!! Well maybe as my passport is not back from its repair yet and i can't go home without it, well anyways i guess it will turn out alrite one way or the other.

eXpressive: 3/10
Practical: 7/10
Physical: 4/10
Giver: 7/10

You are a RPIG--Reserved Practical Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Rock of Gibraltar.You are loyal, kind, thoughtful and conscientious. You're a good person. You make everyone around you happier and better, even if you yourself are not at your happiest or best. You just care so much about your friends and loved ones that you can't help giving them everything of yourself. It can wear you out, but you'd never let on. You're successful, smart and fun to be with, but your self-esteem could use some boosting. You don't like conflict, and you don't like demanding things for yourself, so you can feel unappreciated. But then you wonder if you don't deserve to be appreciated. You do! You have many small crushes, but it takes you ages to get to a serious stage with someone. You get so caught up second-guessing yourself and worrying if the other person really *likes* likes you that you never dare to make the first move. Generally you end up with another clever RPIG who knows one when s/he sees one. This adds up to one long courtship. Fortunately this also adds up to one long marriage. You would never cheat. You would never hurt anyone's feelings. You are so sympathetic and give so many second chances that it takes a lo-o-ong time for anyone to get on your bad side. Your only problem is you can be *too* thoughtful -- you can end up worrying and getting hung up over nothing. You may be a boy scout.

Of the 129096 people who have taken this quiz, 6.9 % are this type.

Found this little quiz on Jassmines Blog if u wanna have a go, go here http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/?quiz=Better+Relationship&page=1

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**Holiday**

Everyday is a holiday,

A day to be happy free and gay,

Feel the warm sunshine on my face,

Free to roam around the place.

Everyday is a holiday,

A day filled with laughter, joy n play,

Hear the breeze singin by the bay,

Wish the troubles all away.

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A small little poem co written by Stephanie and me a long time ago when we were board and had notting better to do (can u tell that i am being lazy).

She is a great writter of poems and songs but mostly songs trust me when i say that she will be big someday.

2004-10-10T06:59:00.000+08:00

The funniest thing happen last nite or might I say early this morning, I had a little chat with Sheryl a good friend (maybe something more, but certainly nothing less). Well she said that she read my blog and was asking if I was ok due to my very depressing last post. The funny thing is that I didn't even know ppl read my blog. Anyways I was happy, happy to know that someone cared, its not everyday that someone tells u that they care for u and that if there r any problems that u can turn to them for help or juz for a listening ear (And to the ppl who do get that kind of treatment "LUCKY U!!!!!"). But as usual I juz dismissed it as nothing and that I was juz fine and went to bed, but am I alrite??? Am I fine??? I dun really knw myself, but I am the sort of ppl who hides their feelings from everyone and anyone. The only person who I actually talk to and confide in is a cousin and a really good cousin at that, but I haven't heard from her in about a month nw and its not making things any better for mi, so if you are reading this I really, really, REALLY hope to hear from u soon. And to Sheryl I'm sorry but I...... I really dun knw wat to say but sorry.
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**TRUST**

As fragile as glass,

Is the word called trust,

The pain it can cause when shattered,

Will leave the heart and soul battered.

This is a pain I know all too well,

that's why I'm always in my shell.

I want to let you in believe me I do,

But I guess I am just a fool.

As weak as I might be,

Maybe someday I will see,

Your love and concern are for real,

And that I won't need my wall of steel.

But for the time being please be patient with me,

As I slowly cast my doubts out to sea,

Little by little till my heart and soul agrees,

Then and only then will I be free.

2004-10-07T13:12:00.000+08:00

Well life kind of sucks now, exams are coming and, I am not doing too well in my studies. Need a way out and soon cause pressure and stress are really getting to mi. Maybe I'm not cut out for this and I am seriously not enjoying any of this. I want to run away. I NEED to run away!!!!! But still I am staying put for who I dun knw but it's defiantly not for myself. Its probably for my parents whom I want to please but I think I am going to fail them, fail as a son as the son they want and see.
I always promise myself the tomorrow will be better but the tomorrow I promise myself never ever comes and I am hating life as it passes day by day. But still I can fake a smile to everyone and sometimes even to myself but the fact of the matter is that at the end of the day the pain is always there.
Everybody says that Aus is and easy place to study and get a degree well it doesn't feel like it too mi, I feel that it is hard or even worst I might just be me.
It never surprises mi how the Australians (but not all mind U.) can take life so easily, its like even if they're failing they can shug it of and say "Well there's always next sem/year".
I envy them sad to say but that's something I cannot afford to do and with that said, the stress settles into mi and starts eating mi from the inside. But that's part of life I guess so I will suffer it in silence, till my tomorrow comes.

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**Fly Away**

I wish i was a bird which could fly,
And not be stuck on the ground watching the world pass by,
Free of worries and care,
Free of worldly troubles which strips the heart bare.

I have clapped my hands and made a wish,
So i no longer have to be a fish,
Stuck in my glass tank of doubt and fear,
Stuck in it year by year.

But i guess a wish is a wish for i am still here,
Forever waiting for my wings to appear,
Stuck in a world of hazy grey,
Always wishing for wings to fly away.

2003-12-29T13:15:00.000+08:00

**A Christmas without you**

Looking back on a year most memorable to me,
I can't believe that a year has flown by since i set
you free,
Loneliness is the expression on my face,
Emptiness within my heart has taken your place,

You will never know about the tears i cried,
It's just that I can't help myself no matter how hard
i try,
I wish you could hear the words that i so long to say,
Even if just for once, how i wish you could stay,

How did i go on living so alone,
How could your heart be as hard as stone,
What will I do now that Christmas is here,
What will Christmas be like without you near.
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**Christmas is here**

Standing outside,
The snow is falling,
Listen to the wind,
And hear the angels sing,

Looking all around,
People feeling so cold,
People laughing together,
People growing old,

Seeing all the lights,
On Christmas trees so bright,
walking all around,
On snow coverd ground,

Everyone is happy,
This time of year,
For everyone knows,
That Christmas is here.
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**Christmas Night**

Looking at all the Christmas lights,
Mostly in red and white,
A thought comes to mind,
I won't be with you Christmas night,

The distance is way too far,
But thats where I have to be,
Pray Santa will pick you up,
And bring you to me,

So Merry Christmas darlin,
And a Happy New Year,
While you're celebrating,
Rememeber that I love you.
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**Christmas Love**

The snow is falling,
Painting the city white,
Your eyes are shining,
Like diamonds tonight,
The night is silent,
And Christmas is here,
I couldn't have ask for more,
Than having you near,
So Merry Christmas darlin,
And to you a good night.

2003-12-02T01:48:00.000+08:00

**A special friend**

A poem for a friend,
Together till the very end,
Morning or night,
Forever bright,
Friends in our hearts,
Which love may start,
Day dreams,
Sunny days,
And starlite nights,
Difficulties that bring you down,
I'll turn that frown upside down,
Your love and sympathy,
I'll always feel through our telepathy,
A friend like you,
I'll never lose,
A smile you start,
You warmed my heart
Forever friends,
Never apart.

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**The perfect guy**

The guy I met is nice and sweet,
No other guy can compete,
If you met him you'd love him too,
But I just don't know what to do,
He just wants to be friends,
And i fear that this is the end,
His loves not for me but for who I know,
Without him near I feel so low,
I want to be held by him alone,
Without him i sigh and moan,
His love for me will never be,
But I'll always wait for him and see.

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(On thing I know for certain)

You love is like a guiding light,
Sweet as the sweetest wine,
One thing I know for certain,
Our love knows no time,

Your smile gives me the greatest strength,
Strength to conqur all that I find,
One thing I know for certain,
You'll never leave my mind,

Your laugh is like a melody,
A great harmonic symphony,
One thing I know for certain,
Your the greatest treasure to me,

Your warmth casts the darkness away,
Your pressence renews my soul,
One thing I know for certain,
I will always love you.

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**A Christmas wish**

Every night there's a star,
On which I gaze,

Its power is magical,
As it sets my heart ablaze,

It promises all happiness,
And thats being with you,

This star holds my Christmas wish,
A wish to share my love with you.

2003-11-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

**Birthday Blues**

Is that the birthday blues I hear?
Don't frown on another year,
For age is just a state of mind,
So let this day be of a joyful kind,

So many ways to spend the day,
How I wish I could whisk you away,
To a place far far away,
I'd pamper you, now wouldn't that be nice,
In the moonlite night with all the spice,

So on this day don't be blue,
For I have special thoughts and wishes for you,
Too bad I can't be with you on this special day,
Maybe another year and I'll show you how it's done my
way.

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**One single Rose**

One single rose for our eternal love,
One single hope for our eternal devotion,
One single wish upon my aching heart,
One single thought of you so true,
One single desire burning within my soul,
One single act to seal it all,
One single love never to be torn apart,
One single rose for one last kiss.

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**Two**

Where has it gone,
Even the wind has lost it's song,
That smile that made my world right,
And without it my world's no longer bright,

Dark clouds are about,
Filling your heart with doubt,
Don't you worry give me a smile,
And I'll carry you through your hardest mile,

Don't lose hope it doesn't matter,
Never let your fate falter,
I'll be the rock you can lean on,
I'll be there next to you from dusk till dawn,

Don't lose the twinkle in your eye,
For I'll never say goodbye,
Share with me your fears,
And I'll wipe away your tears,

It takes two to fly,
So lets say our goodbyes,
And take to the eternal clear blue skies.

2003-10-27T18:16:00.000+08:00

**Life**
Today seems to be like any other day,
Where so many people turn their heads away,
Trying to hide their fears, sorrow and tears,
Trying so hard to hide what must be faced,

Never let your pass decide your future,
For it is what you want it to be,
As destiny is in your hands,
Control it in what ever way you can,

Keep that head up,
Stand tall,
And never let them see you fall,

Alwasy remember that,
Life's a challenge,
Meet it,
It is an opportunity,
Take it,
Life's a journey,
And u alone have to make it.

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**A song for the lonely**
This is a song for the lost at heart,
For all thoes who feel torn apart,
For the wondering soul looking for peace,
With never ending thoughts hopping to rest at ease,
For thoes who feel so gone,
Bound by heavy hearts but still live on,

"I have felt the brightest of lights,
And now i feel as if the candle has died,
I have felt my wings spread wide,
And now with thoes wings i cannot take flight,

Can you see me standing alone,
Without a love to call my own,
I am untouchable to the hands of death,
As without her I cannot draw a single breath,
This is the song for the broken man,
The one who tries the very best he can,

I have felt the top of the world,
And now I feel that I have lost my one and only girl,
I have sailed the seven seas for her kiss,
And now I am lost in a teary mist,

You can hear this song being played,
Whenever a broken heart is made,
It is whisper from me to you my friend,
Telling you that this is not the end,
Your life continues on where your love has left off,
And to guide You back from your stay at OZ."

I know how you feel trust me I've been there too,
When theres nothing left to say, think or do,
I have kneeled before myself,
To question all answers but with only truth left,

I have wished upon a blue moon,
That I would see her someday, someday soon,
So if you know of a friend who needs to let go a tear,
Whisper this song into their ear,
It will sooth the pain inside,
And show you that I once too have cried.

2003-10-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

**A Late Nite Dream**

I stay up late at night.
With my eyes closed tight.
Thinking of you in the bright summers light.
Where the whole world feels just right.
Your ocean blue eyes.
Fills my soul with delight.
Because it is in them that i see heaven's light.

With my eyes shut tight.
Warm Summer's day turns into Mid Autumn's night.
Hand in hand, heart to heart.
As we walk down the moonlite park.
Looking up in the sky.
With the stars as our guide.
And the moon as our goal.
I thank god for this feels so right.

I turn to look upon my angel.
Standing by my side.
Bathing in the moon's silvery light.
I lean over to whisper in her ear.
With heart felt words i mutter.
Thoes three little words ......

As i open my eyes.
I'm snapped back to reality.
A glimps of the future ???
I picture us once more.
The perfect couple.
Heaven and Earth.
You and Me.
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**Some One Like U**

So empty,
So lonely,
Can you hear me,
Something is missing,
But what is this feeling?

Some days I'm happy,
And others I'm sad,
I need an answer,
But everythings just black.

My head is spinning,
These memories rushing by and by,
Thoughts i can't erase,
What is this empty space.

All emotions are gone,
Only saddens and lonely are here to stay,
When will this feeling ever fade away?
When will happiness be back to stay?

I need a love,
My angel from above,
Someone to see the world through my eyes,
Something that's not a disguise.

I need a love strong and true,
To be there when I'm through,
Someone...... Someone......
Someone just like you.

2003-09-16T23:44:00.000+08:00

**Stars In Your Eyes**

There's a star in your eyes,
The moonlight i can see,
With the light from the heavens,
your soul is clear to me,

Was it my personal ways,
That drove you away,
Give me a second chance,
and who's to say,
Come back with me,
To thoes care free days,
With joy and laughter,
our loving ways,
listen to the wind,
Singing our song,
Our song of love,
Our unchanging melody,

Now with you gone,
there's an ach in my heart,
where you use to be,
And a pain in my soul,
Its clear for all to see,
There's a star in your eyes,
Can i wish upon that star tonight.

2003-08-27T18:01:00.000+08:00

**Soul Mate**

Through thick and thin,
My feelings will never end.
For it wasn't until you came into my life
That my heart could mend.

From the first time we met
You changed my world to be.
Forever in my heart
This feeling of you and me.

Each and everyday we got closer
The more I felt safer.
Because I know that you will be there
And that helps me grow each day a little taller.

We're two peas in a pot
So much the same you and me.
But God has to make it so hard on the both of us
So much so that I have thoughts that it was not meant to be.

I don't think you know this
But I cried when I heard you were going.
I don't want u to go
I don't want to see my soulmate leaving.

But I knew that this day would come
For all good things must come to an end.
I won't cry no more I'll believe in us
For the day of our meeting might be just around the bend.

I'll be here waiting patiently
For the day of your god sent return.
Waiting patiently for the day
When two halfs can truly be one again.